01-08-2011 at around 2 am. grandma went to a much better place.
the grief and sadness i feel now can't be compared to what my dad feels. putting myself in his shoes feels like knives stabbing my whole body.
"i won't see her anymore" keeps running through my mind. no more trying hard to speak broken hokkien. no more helping ah ma walk through a crowded mcd, to the next house, to places. no more hearing ah ma talk about everybody enthusiastically (although i don't understand most of it). no more pushing away angpow full of money and saying 'mien lah' (no need). no more no more no more seeing her.
i take comfort in the fact that she is in a much better place now. no suffering. she lived her life cycle. take care :) <3
